Clear thinking

Almighty God, let me let go of trying to figure things out, or trying to determine who's right or wrong. Instead let me feel Christ embracing me. Let me find common ground, full of love. Let me follow the example of your Son, who does not seek control; instead loving sacrifice and acceptance. This is the source of His glory. Born of mercy and trust, in God Almighty. Let me trust in you, bring us together in unity. I know that, by your sweet mercy, all things are possible. In Jesus Name Amen.


"Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins." (1 Peter 4:8)


When truth's are disclosed by God, it can be difficult to accept, but it is so important to trust faithfully in the Lord.  






The truth is he has always (and is still doing it today) sought out multiple women whether married or involved it does not matter. He had affairs on his ex-wife Debbie, and stayed married for 29 years because of his children. He had and is having affairs on me (Colorado, Lorraine, Jacqueline, Brandi, Lisa, Savannah, and there were many more I discovered later). He only recently started talking like he might want to be on his own (officially we're still together I pay for his bills, we own property together, we still see each other). Over the 7 years we've been together after the 1 or 2 year he started liying about me, keeping me a secret - he's starting his new friendship with Savannah that way. She's a secret, look st all the female friends he has on FB, and each new one is usually a female. He still calls me, he called me last night, and he is so concerned about me - he has had his friend Truck Driving Taylor try to connect with me on Instagram. Scott fights his love for me - because of his life playing with women and affairs, but he will not let go of me!! Because he is deeply connected to me, he deeply loves me - God is working hard on him right now to bring truth and faith into his life!!! We are connected because God brought us together many, many, many years ago as children and fight as we might - we cannot break that bond!!! God is healing us, changing us, loving us!!! Scotty had pursued me and stayed connected to me my entire life - he and I never had any issues with disagreements when we reconnected and he moved to NC - we truly are soulmates! That being said - yes he has a mental illness and he is sort of Obsessive Compulsive with seeking out new women - he legitimately knows it's wrong to do to me - but he's adficted to the rush and thrill of it!! It's hard to explain - but he won't give me up but he won't give up Women either. Savannah thinks she's the only one but she may be more the top other woman, but he is wooing Lisa, and then of course he lusts after Kim daily, and all his FB connections are primarily about connecting with women! I am trying to help him, and make our relationship healthy.... he and I recently talked about how he is so drawn to reaching out to new women. He had lived with me since January 2010, he started staying more in SC (a property we both own) about a year ago - when he felt he was in love with Jacqueline his Nutritionist. Bear in mind he was still very much in a relationship with me. He was being patient with Jacqueline because she wasn't sure about dating - fast forward a year he and she reconnect and it turns out Jacqueline is a Con Artist, that's a whole other story. The point here being - he lusts, he falls for one, sometimes more than one, meanwhile he stays with me and tells me he loves me.  And eventually he ends it or one of them ends it and he moves on - it's an illness!!! Trying as hard as we can to help him and get him help. My family and I consider him very much apart of us, my parents adore him and are very concerned about doing everything that we can to help him. He needs a strong support system, but sometimes he's going to buck that system to run off and be wild, which is what happens. I've had to pick him up from bars where he was so drunk he barely knew who he was, bailed him out, held his hand and let him know it's okay we'll get through it. It's hard to see him suffer -  and yes it hurts when he tells lies about me to get what he wants with women, and that his illness causes him to lust after females. That hurt he caused me is the ONLY thing he and I ever had words about period. Another element in our deep connection- we do get along - right now he is hearing a lot of negative chatter from his new friends who don't know him well enough to know his situation. An uphill battle!! Amen 🙏 



I am so much s sewer mentality for my sewing projects - many started, in process, not completely finished yet! Some get prioritized down due to new mire important commitments that come up. 

But, in my life otherwise and my full time job I am organized to a fault. I am seriously organized... 




This blouse is cute!!! 


Enough off topic

Time to refocus and get back to creating and making....., 



Sharing joy

I cooked some pulled pork (haven't pulled it apart yet), but will be making some potato salad and will be sharing and enjoying with Scotty (like old times). 



Also, plan on using the fresh eggs from our chickens 🐔 and baking some loaves of bread 🍞 for us as well. 


New Treadle

I purchased a brand new Janome J12T Treadle sewing machine (who knew they still made them). And it is being fitted into an existing should be coming home soon! Thank you dear Scotty!! 




Dear Lord,

I offer you this prayer, to help me and Scott. Please take away all the pain and hurt in our hearts. Fill it with love, joy, patience, and understanding. Bless me and Scott, so that we may never surrender to whatever challenges come our way. Fill our hearts with love for each other, and may you make each one of us realize each other's worth. Please touch the heart of Scott, fill it with much love for me. Make our complicated relationship become uncomplicated. I seek for your mercy and blessing that you may allow us to spend the rest of our lives with each other. Please make this feeling mutual for both of us. Lead us not into temptations. Guide us wherever we go. Always put us in each other's heart and mind. I give you God all the love and praise. Thank you Lord for hearing my prayer. In Jesus Name Amen.


Scotty and I have been talking a lot more lately, getting to the real situation his deeply hurting me and my response in not trusting him , I crossed the line and hurt him as a result. We both need to heal and find our footing and get back together! Regardless of what his female friends may think I hold his entire heart, others hold only a piece of his heart. This will never change because we are very deeply connected, that cannot be fully broken, we remain in contact and wish to spend time with each other. We love each other but we are clouded by our hurting of one another. 


Antique Sewing Machine Display Boxes

We're going home today - custom antique sewing machine display boxes for 3 antique sewing machines! 💕👍🏻👏🏻✂️


Future project 7 - Rag Rug

I must be a sewist if I'm lining up another new project, while my other new projects are still WIP.....😜✂️

Actually I'm looking forward to retiring so I can devote more time to making.....



Cynthia: praying that my walk with God grows deeper by the minute, for God to grant me the wisdom for the steps He desires  for me through His plan.

Everyone: to have a strong truthful loving relationship with God, and experience His love, mercies, healing, strength and guidance always and forever. 💕🙏✨📖


Sheep among wolves

Holy Spirit, you are my helper, counselor, and comforter. Jesus , you tell us there are enemies. Please show me what this means for me today. I pray that your truth would find its way to my heart today. Through Christ our Lord Amen. "I am sending you out like sheep among wolves." Matthew 10:16 "

A taste of righteousness can be easily perverted into an overwhelming  sense of self-righteousness and judgmentalism.” R. Kent Hughes 💕🙏📖✨ 


Future Project 6

Upcoming project - front grommet and rope treatment skirt with the striped fabric and short sleeve or mid length sleeve top in black..... 


Future project 5

Upcoming project - reversible wrap skirt using the bold black stripe and black with dots; along with a short sleeved belted tunic in coral..... 



It's a very difficult situation when someone close to you or whom you love dearly treats you with disrespect or unfavorable actions! I can only turn closer to God for healing, guidance and protection, amazing to me how persons are willing and able to represent themselves in a light that speaks deception or dishonesty about who they truly are.    


11 Teach me your way, O LORD, and lead me on a level path because of my enemies. 12 Give me not up to the will of my adversaries; for false witnesses have risen against me, and they breathe out violence.

13 I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! 14 Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!

Psalm 27:11-14



Love does have its delights. One of those delights is in what is authentic, genuine, and true — TRUTH! So as Jesus' disciples, we are not deceitful, manipulative, or coercive in our relationships. Instead, we are transparent, intimate, and honest. Why? Because true love delights in truth.

O LORD, God of love and truth, as you pour your love into my heart through your Holy Spirit, please refine my love to be genuine and true, without guile, manipulation, and deceit. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen. 


Living room side chairs pillows from upcycled coffe bean bags


Finished product 2 side chair pillows, each side of the pillow has different detail  




Will be making 2 pillows out of the burlap, going for a country feel with the couch once it's finished (reupholstering)...