Almighty God, let me let go of trying to figure things out, or trying to determine who's right or wrong. Instead let me feel Christ embracing me. Let me find common ground, full of love. Let me follow the example of your Son, who does not seek control; instead loving sacrifice and acceptance. This is the source of His glory. Born of mercy and trust, in God Almighty. Let me trust in you, bring us together in unity. I know that, by your sweet mercy, all things are possible. In Jesus Name Amen.
"Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins." (1 Peter 4:8)
When truth's are disclosed by God, it can be difficult to accept, but it is so important to trust faithfully in the Lord.
The truth is he has always (and is still doing it today) sought out multiple women whether married or involved it does not matter. He had affairs on his ex-wife Debbie, and stayed married for 29 years because of his children. He had and is having affairs on me (Colorado, Lorraine, Jacqueline, Brandi, Lisa, Savannah, and there were many more I discovered later). He only recently started talking like he might want to be on his own (officially we're still together I pay for his bills, we own property together, we still see each other). Over the 7 years we've been together after the 1 or 2 year he started liying about me, keeping me a secret - he's starting his new friendship with Savannah that way. She's a secret, look st all the female friends he has on FB, and each new one is usually a female. He still calls me, he called me last night, and he is so concerned about me - he has had his friend Truck Driving Taylor try to connect with me on Instagram. Scott fights his love for me - because of his life playing with women and affairs, but he will not let go of me!! Because he is deeply connected to me, he deeply loves me - God is working hard on him right now to bring truth and faith into his life!!! We are connected because God brought us together many, many, many years ago as children and fight as we might - we cannot break that bond!!! God is healing us, changing us, loving us!!! Scotty had pursued me and stayed connected to me my entire life - he and I never had any issues with disagreements when we reconnected and he moved to NC - we truly are soulmates! That being said - yes he has a mental illness and he is sort of Obsessive Compulsive with seeking out new women - he legitimately knows it's wrong to do to me - but he's adficted to the rush and thrill of it!! It's hard to explain - but he won't give me up but he won't give up Women either. Savannah thinks she's the only one but she may be more the top other woman, but he is wooing Lisa, and then of course he lusts after Kim daily, and all his FB connections are primarily about connecting with women! I am trying to help him, and make our relationship healthy.... he and I recently talked about how he is so drawn to reaching out to new women. He had lived with me since January 2010, he started staying more in SC (a property we both own) about a year ago - when he felt he was in love with Jacqueline his Nutritionist. Bear in mind he was still very much in a relationship with me. He was being patient with Jacqueline because she wasn't sure about dating - fast forward a year he and she reconnect and it turns out Jacqueline is a Con Artist, that's a whole other story. The point here being - he lusts, he falls for one, sometimes more than one, meanwhile he stays with me and tells me he loves me. And eventually he ends it or one of them ends it and he moves on - it's an illness!!! Trying as hard as we can to help him and get him help. My family and I consider him very much apart of us, my parents adore him and are very concerned about doing everything that we can to help him. He needs a strong support system, but sometimes he's going to buck that system to run off and be wild, which is what happens. I've had to pick him up from bars where he was so drunk he barely knew who he was, bailed him out, held his hand and let him know it's okay we'll get through it. It's hard to see him suffer - and yes it hurts when he tells lies about me to get what he wants with women, and that his illness causes him to lust after females. That hurt he caused me is the ONLY thing he and I ever had words about period. Another element in our deep connection- we do get along - right now he is hearing a lot of negative chatter from his new friends who don't know him well enough to know his situation. An uphill battle!! Amen 🙏